Friday, January 18, 2008 . 7:20 AM

Ever had the feeling that your happiness was tied to someone else? It is supposed to be a most wonderful feeling. But what if you know that that person can never be a part of your life? that he or she was meant to be a mere spectator, and nothing more? that despite your best efforts, that person's heart would forever be someone else's property, even when that "someone else" keeps changing?

That said, OG BBQ was a blast! i havent felt so happy and relaxed and high for ages! i had wished that Orientation gave me that feeling, but it never came. maybe it was just me and my everchanging mood lah. hm.

SRJCs tomorrow. I LOVE YOU ALL, K! JYJY =D

Friday, January 11, 2008 . 4:59 AM

I've witnessed your power to divide; now i'm witnessing it again. but don't worry, for the sins of the past will catch up with you. when that day occurs, dont you dare cry. I've realised this over the years: there is no point feeling hurt when someone hurts you, for the person who had hurt you would never know what it feels like to be hurt in such a way. Only you yourself would remember the hurt, acutely, painfully perhaps, in all its dimensions and forms. Maybe, just maybe, with such a point of view, the world might seem a less depressing place. =/

Wednesday, January 9, 2008 . 4:19 AM

in my opinion, what people nowadys should grow is sympathy. no, not empathy; thats too much to ask for, really. seriously, what is wrong with everybody? you dont go tell a person whos parents are divorced that, since divorce is so widespread these days, its okay, especially when you have a warm home to go back to. you dont tell a starving person that its okay to be starving because one will never grow fat, especially when you are a 100 kg or something. grow up, seriously. or fuck off.

Tuesday, January 8, 2008 . 5:21 AM

Everyone's been telling me how i should give debates a shot, for example. how i should try, how i shouldn't give up. But that soft but persistant voice, that thing we call REASON, tells me that no matter how hard i try, nothing will turn out right. And that loud and equally persistant voice called FEAR doesnt help matters much either. (Though CAITLIN TAN'S voice is the loudest so far i concede. stop it lah hehe)

My favourite word of the year shall hence be "futility". For isn't life itself a futile struggle? =/

Friday, January 4, 2008 . 4:45 AM

Before i begin ranting, lets just talk about about orientation in general first. As expected, people like me and my fellow classmates found it boring (this being our third), with perhaps flashes of excitement found in between (sounds like an apt description of life, aint it? haha)

Orientation has always been a great oppurtunity to learn more about people; this one is no different. Yet the very lesson i have learnt this year have left me nothing short of... devastated.

Shall be noting my observations in time to come (which may mean never, as my dear friends would very well know. haha) Lethargy binds better than the strongest of ropes, in my opinion. Would you not agree =) ?

[LAZY SAY LAZY LAH, TALK SO MUCH COCK -.-]

Wednesday, January 2, 2008 . 5:47 AM

I actually wanted to start this new blog on the 31 of December; I have a morbid fascination with endings, haha. Guess I was too late. Procrastination to me is suicide, for every minute wasted is a conscious step taken towards our eventual deaths, no? Seems like something that i am certainly guilty of...

Many, many things disturb me now. From weight problems to people thinking i'm overreacting about my weight problems to people who think i'm gay for worrying about my weight problems to... well you get the point. Yet the thing that most disturbs me is not my weight problems, people! (Cue Lemuel/Ni Ming/Jonathan screaming L.I.A.R. HAHA)It's this persistant feeling that all efforts to make the world a better place would ultimately be futile; and that is seriously getting to me... [K lah, it's the new year's fault. haha.]

*Ding dong

Okay, time for my antidepressants.