Friday, June 6, 2008 . 4:02 AM

Hey everybody, I’m finally back from the land which created the Chinese language, constantly looks like a Chinese temple everywhere and where one eats “zi char” and nothing else everyday. Yupp folks, I’m back from Beijing.

During this trip, I’ve gained loads of new friends! The CSE people are like super duper cool. Haha love you guys :) Learned a lot too. And no Ms Goh, I am not a menstruating PMS-y bloody neh-neh -.-

Yet I’ve also seemed to have lost a friend. a friend that was, and still is, extremely dear to me. has he changed? or have I changed? i was thinking that maybe the problem is that i feel that he doesn’t feel the same about me. maybe I feel unimportant to him, that i don’t matter at all in the bigger scheme of things. i probably don't actually. Kenrick, Kenrick, your neediness is once again at fault.

whatever the case, it hurts, and it hurts badly. I’m not shy or afraid at all to say that it hurts, really, for it hurts because and only because he matters. Even if that sounds a bit gay (he, for one, would definitely find it to be so.) Hopefully things haven't gotten beyond salvation. I can't afford another emotional stab. Not now.