Sunday, July 20, 2008 . 9:37 AM

"It feels as though the worst of the storms of the past few months have passed. The baby steps i have taken back to normalcy have now become more confident. But the seeming calm and quiet feels unnerving. Silence is but the loudest noise of all... Is it the beginning of the end? Or is it the calm before another bigger, scarier storm? Only time will tell."

Well, time told alright. I'm losing my grip over my emotions again. One moment I'm laughing out loud, the other moment I'm screaming. Today at Popeye's (I know I'm on a diet but I needed comfort food today) I almost threw my chicken at this bunch of giggly girls because they were irritating the shit out of me. Thank god I pulled back just in time.

"The world doesn't stop spinning because of you."

I know it doesn't. But I've never stop hoping. Hoping that at least someone in the world would stop to hear me. I hate the fact that my self worth depends on feeling useful and of importance to other people, but I can't help it. And God's voice is trailing off again. I'm losing faith.

Wake up Kenrick, WAKE UP.